Intimate without intimacy...

Watching 'Bones' tonight, I thought about the kind of relationship that Booth and Bones have. It is one where they are close emotionally, yet don't have that physical closeness that you see in most other television shows. The two of them offset and complete each other, with their knowledge and idiosyncrasies. They have a relationship that any of us should be or are jealous of. Intimate in the sense that they know each other so well that they could finish each others sentences, and not NEEDING that physical intimacy to fuel the relationship. That is something that I want... a relationship that is based on friendship, not based on physical feelings and reactions. I want to be able to spend hours and hours with someone and be able to talk forever, about anything and everything. That is what I want. And though I haven't found that yet, I am waiting(trying to be patient) and watching for him.

Too many Horrors!!!

Is it bad when you start to imagine your everyday life as a horror movie? Not in the sense that you hate your job or this and that... but think about what would happen to so-and-so if this was a horror movie. Or when some conversations turn to ''How would it feel if this happened?'' and you think not in just that psychological thriller way that keeps you in suspense, but the Saw IV way. The blood, guts, and gore. These little things fascinate and infuriate me... like a book about a serial killer who will pull out about 2 or 3 feet of intestine from a 2 inch incision right below their victim's belly button. Or a kidnapper who will drip acid onto their victim just for thrills. I read these books and watch these movies because I enjoy them, yes, but also because I like to figure out who or what is behind the violent acts... because I like to figure out the mystery. Why do these people do what they do? What or who made their minds so messed up that they find a thrill or pleasure in hurting other people. I want to get inside their heads and find a way that will help them solve their problems... and in that way help save the people who would be their victims. I still wonder sometimes if I read too many thrillers... or watch too many horrors.

happiness...

What is happiness? To me it is satisfaction in the life we lead... enjoying the little things... taking time from this busy life we lead to sit and listen, look, think. Not think about everything we have to do today, but about what we love in life. To be thankful for the good things that we have in our lives. For example, that could be sunshine peeking out of the clouds and lighting up the earth, a summer midnight thunderstorm that clears the air, talking with someone and knowing that you can just be yourself, a lone flower growing in the most unexpected place. Even in the midst of our busy and sometimes 'everything-goes-wrong' lives, there are little things that are around us that can make us smile and remember to take a deep breath. We don't need everything in our lives to go just so to be happy, we just have to watch for those things and enjoy them when they are there.